Inspiration

Was it Weezer?


Lately I have this feeling of uninspired and lack of creativity.. I think I used to really be creative and come up with some crazy ideas. But things in the ministry get so mechanical sometimes due to what I think is lack thinking time. Ill have to admit I have been at the church a lot lately and I think it is draining me. I get a lot of time to think but not creatively.

So I was in my car and got done with a book on CD. When I ejected it Weezer was playing on my ipod and I decided to listen to it for a while. Then all of a sudden it was like my creative juices started to flow again. Dreams started to happen and I felt Jesus speaking to me, showing me direction, and giving me courage. It was awesome.

I know it wasn't weezer but it was that I got out of the "life zone." Ya know, it is its where you can predict everything that is going to happen. And when something unpredictable does happen it doesn't even snap you out of it. Well for whatever reason 11:30 at night in Dayton OH I snapped out of it. Maybe it was because I knew I get to wake up the next day with no agenda. Maybe I left a physical zone I gave myself. Maybe I left a mental zone. I don't know what happened but I think I need to get out of this church more often. I need more of that because I need to lead these kids and people somewhere. But where is it. My current plan is good but it is a buffet of things I have read and learned. I am not even sure that is where God want me to lead them. I suppose thats the biggest struggle with leadership. Either way I need to make a few more trips to Dayton, OH to get my head on strait or figure why God was so clear to me at that time.